116 - Resetting at Zero O'clock
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[00:00:00] Hello, my friends, and welcome to a reset episode of Radiant You. If you've been paying attention, you may have noticed a little bit of a different tone in some of the episodes that I've had recently. For example, I recorded "A Beginner's Mind" where we were talking about seeing things with a fresh, new perspective: God's perspective. And then I recorded "Dare to Be Average," where we recognize that your ordinary Is actually divinely extraordinary.
[00:00:32] Well, You may have guessed that these have been a little bit symbolic for where I am at lately in my own life. Because honestly there have been a lot of things going on. If you didn't know I had a amazing gift from God that is a sweet little baby girl. And it's honestly been kind of a re-evaluation of what I believe about myself.
[00:00:57] You see, I have four boys. and my youngest boy is six years old. So it's been a hot minute since I have been in this realm of the vulnerable, newborn, not knowing what direction is up, sleep deprived phase. And although it has been such a beautiful gift, it's also shaken up a lot of things, where this new birth has brought a new perspective in my life. It has given me a chance to kind of reinvent myself.
[00:01:24] In the past, I've thought, "I'm a mom of boys." That was my hashtag mom of boys. Life is loud and crazy and fun. And now this sweet little soft, tender, feminine bundle of joy that has bows and bum ruffles and has the cutest high pitched squeal when she smiles at me that's been so different. It has helped me see my world differently.
[00:01:49] I have been a working mom for a long time with my coaching and my business that I've been running, my podcast that I've been doing regularly for two and a half years. It's been on pause, as I've taken a breath and been present in my maternity leave.
[00:02:05] All of this has created more space in my mind and my soul to be asking, " What does God want for me? What is the legacy that I want to be building?" Especially because now I have the job of taking this amazing sweet baby girl and helping her become a woman.
[00:02:27] I have found myself wanting to do things like learning how to do laundry better and make homemade pies, and renewing my relationship with my body to make sure that I am showing her the example of what she can have with her body. All of these different types of yearnings in me are pulling me to root deeper in my home, in my family, in my femininity, in the calling that God has given me in this phase in my life.
[00:02:56] And honestly, it's just calling me out to really practice what I teach on these podcasts. That self-awareness: where I'm checking in and getting honest. The self-confidence: having my own back and making sure I'm letting God guide my path and not looking for external evidence to guide me the right way. And then that self-love: where I don't need that external validation, but that I truly love who I am and the path that I'm on.
[00:03:25] And it's left me thinking, "What would really be loving for me?"
[00:03:30] After lots of prayer and reflection, a quote came to my mind from a spiritual leader of mine, Henry B. Eyering. He said recently, "Live so that when the call comes, you can walk away easily."
[00:03:44] And I'm not going to lie, when that came to my head, I was a little bit nervous. I felt like, "Oh no, does that mean I have to walk away from all of these things that I've spent the last five years building? I have invested so much time and energy and money. Can I just really walk away?" I took a deep breath and refocused and said, "Okay, I don't need to think about all that has been, or even what I think should be... what is God's will for me at this new phase of my life?" And I've spent the last few weeks really asking that question, pondering in prayer and searching in scripture. And gratefully it's my favorite time of year with a worldwide conference where the leaders in my church come and share their testimonies of faith and invite us to move forward in ours. And it happened to come right in the middle of this reflection that I've been experiencing. It's just one of those testaments that God is good and has my back.
[00:04:43] As I prayerfully took my questions to this two-day conference, I also took the belief that personal revelation is possible.
[00:04:52] As promised in Matthew 7:7, the Lord says, "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."
[00:05:04] And I walked into that conference knowing that if I asked that I would know. And my answers came in pieces. One piece came when the artist Kristen Lee shared this with me and it hit me like a ton of bricks. She said:
[00:05:20] "In C. S. Lewis's writings, Aslan poses these words to a man who has entangled himself in his own devices: 'Oh [humankind], how cleverly you defend yourselves [from] all that might do you good!'"
[00:05:37] Then she said, "Where might you and I be defending ourselves from those things that might do us good? Let us not defend ourselves from the good that God desires to bless us with."
[00:05:52] As I internalize those words, I just felt flooded with the joy and the gratitude that God has blessed me with a chance to reset and enjoy this beautiful new gift of life.
[00:06:07] If you've been listening at all in the last few years, it's taken me a long time for me to open my heart to having another child. And it also came with a lot of heartache and a two year road that was not easy. But now that I'm here I see the goodness of God! And I want to fully have space to receive that in my life. And honestly, my friend, I can't fully receive it if I keep walking the path that I've been walking.
[00:06:39] I knew that I was receiving a clear answer when just two speakers later, Jorge Alvarado said, "We all need to repent, rewind, and reset the time to zero o'clock every single day."
[00:06:56] When he said zero o'clock, I thought, "What would that look like in my life? What would I do differently if I truly reset and let go of any obligation, any pretense, anything that I thought I should be doing? What would a true reset look like? And what feels right in my soul to be doing in this new phase?" In that moment, I knew it was time to move on.
[00:07:27] With this sweet little girl, God has given me a gift of new life. And it's time for me to reinvent myself and embrace the beginner's mindset where I dare to let the simpler path be enough.
[00:07:42] So, my friend, this is my last podcast episode. I feel a lot of emotion about it because I've been running this race for a very long time. And maybe I'll pop in in the future and maybe do the podcast season thing if God puts something else on my heart that He wants me to share with you. But for now, this is part of the legacy that I've chosen to let be enough and move on to a new phase of creation, resetting at zero o'clock.
[00:08:15] *Here's my invitation to you: look at your life with a renewed lens.*
[00:08:21] Where do you need to reset? What's your zero o'clock? Are you defending yourself from the good that God has, ready and waiting for you? Are you willing to walk away from things you may have been creating in your life to follow other paths that He's calling you on?
[00:08:43] I know how hard it can be. I've honestly been resisting recording this episode for a long time, but I finally feel at peace. And I invite you to seek your own peace through personal revelation, because I know if you ask and you seek, you will find God's will for you.
[00:09:04] *Please, friend, keep practicing self-awareness, self-confidence, and self-love. Because you deserve to be Radiant and God will guide that path.*
[00:09:19] And if you want to still have help along the way, I have felt at peace about still doing coaching. Anyone who comes into my circle, I would love to support them in any way that I can. But I'm not going to be building out my business and doing marketing and putting out podcasts and content. So if you want help, feel free to reach out to me. I'd be happy to do an email back and forth to answer, any questions, or if you want to hop on a coaching session, I'm available for that too.
[00:09:49] Just shoot me a quick email at [email protected] and I will be honored to support you on your journey. Because no matter what else happens, you really can't take the coach out of me.
[00:10:00] But for now, I am leaning in to a simpler life. No more podcasting, no more business building, resetting at zero o'clock.
[00:10:11] These past years have been a huge growing experience for me. And I'm so grateful for the experience of podcasting and what it's done for me.
[00:10:22] *Thank you for listening.*
[00:10:25] I hope that you've got what you needed in your journey so far. And I hope that this inspires you to reset and embrace the gifts that God is trying to give you too.
[00:10:40] After all, He knows how to make All things work together for your good.
[00:10:48] Trust Him. He will guide you. I know that I'm leaving you in great hands because I know He is there for you.
[00:10:59] Good luck with your journey, my friend! And please, please always keep shining because you are radiant.
